The past few weeks have really given me an opportunity to think about my blog: where it is now, what I want it to become, and also where it all began. Quite a bit can change in three years…and change can be a good thing. It would make sense that as time goes on we change, our workouts change, our blogs change, etc. Without that change life would get pretty boring. Sometimes thinking about where we once were can be frustrating. For example, right now I think about how last year at this time I was getting ready to run a marathon, and now I am considering 8 miles a long run.
It just so happened that this week’s Tuesdays on the Run topic is “How are you different from when you started blogging?” I decided to use this as a chance to look at who I was and what my blog was like at the beginning of it all, especially as I am in the midst of revamping my site and trying to move forward in a way that is a good fit for me and my blog.
Running Out Of Wine in 2013
My first post was written about marathon training. I just jumped right in midway through a training cycle because it felt like the time was right to start a blog. After reading blogs for a few years, I finally decided I wanted to start my own. I figured I would talk about running (obviously) and other parts of my life, which included wine.
Back then I was working out quite a bit. A typical week included 5-6 days of running, 1-2 days of body pump, and a yoga class. My mileage was always above 30 miles per week. In general I had more time overall to devote to running and other workouts. I also had more time for blogging.
My posts back then were nothing special, but I was really just writing about whatever was on my mind. My pictures were small and blurry and I only had a few readers. Slowly I began connecting more with other bloggers and learned some tips to improve my blog. I didn’t write too much about wine, but I definitely stuck to the running theme.
How are things different now?
Let’s see, so much has changed in 3 years. I guess the biggest changes that affected my running and blogging is living in a different area and having a different job. Just by moving out of the city I had a longer commute. Then on top of that I got a new position that demands more of my time. With one car, I drive Rob to and from the train so we need to be mindful of each other’s schedules. Out here, it’s not as comfortable to be out running at 5am like it was by the harbor.
Because of these changes I am awake earlier, leaving for work earlier, and getting home later. I have no time or energy to exercise after work like I used to. It’s all about making dinner and finding some time to relax before an earlier bedtime. Sometimes I don’t have the mental energy to write a blog post or even comment on other blogs. I do my best writing and thinking in the mornings.
Beyond all that, I guess my body just can’t handle all the running and exercise the way it used to. Or maybe it’s because of the additional stress of work and such. Either way, I am learning that I need to back off and not compare myself to where I used to be. I was still able to set PRs this year even with lower weekly mileage.
These changes led me to just let go of some of the things I used to feel the need to control. Like eating enough vegetables. Or meal prepping for hours each weekend. And hitting a certain number of miles each week. I wish I could do those things, but it takes mental energy to worry about them. It’s just not worth it.
Don’t get me wrong- I still struggle with feeling like I need to control certain areas of my life, I guess I have realized that I can’t control everything.
Mile By Mile: Where am I headed?
I am not exactly sure, but I do feel like this is a fresh start. Developing my site and looking back on old posts gave me a chance to really think about this. I want to get back to being able to just sit down and write whatever is on my mind. I want to share information I learn with others, and connect with more runners and bloggers. My goal is to create a space that I am proud of and that makes me want to write and share ideas.
As I am getting back into running more after my long bout with an injury, I am starting to think about what’s next with my running. The best answer I can find is that I shouldn’t be thinking about what’s next. I should just appreciate where I am now. (For those of us who are planners, we know that is a foreign concept.) However, after months of not knowing whether or not I would make it through a 2 mile run without pain, I have learned that you don’t always know what the future holds. I am happiest when I am running consistently, and I want to be able to do that without the stress of any goals or expectations.
How are you different now than when you started blogging?
Have your fitness/running goals changed over the years?